So the CAFS assessment is due tomorrow and it is worth like 35% of my grade and I still haven’t properly started it or have gotten any part of it done. I basically have less than 24 hours to finish a 30 page research report, write an essay and memorise it and make a speech and powerpoint. I am dying. I feel so stressed. But I really don’t want to even start it or do any of it. It’s already 9am and I have so much to do. Help me.

So last Friday (19th of April) I went to my friends place to do UMAT prep. We decided we should meet up during school time and we were trying to work out a schedule where all three of us could meet up but the both of them were busy with tutor and stuff and they were always free on different days. And I was all like: oh the free life of an untutored student. And they were like I am so jealous. But yeah that day was okay. Me and my friend went out to buy food while the one whose house it was stayed and finished a section of UMAT. Talked about psychology and how I could do better if I tried and feminism. I bought a mango QQ it was really good. It was the first time I went to that friends house though. She has chickens.

On another note I am still using Tumblr through my phone. And I am pretty sure I failed ALL my half yearly exams. There goes my chance at first place in pretty much everything. Guess I just have to do better next time.

Might upload the audio files i have of Guy Sebastian’s performances. They were amazing. And he sang the rap in battle scars. The audio isn’t too bad. I’m glad it’s clear.

I also have a (crappy) video of Billy Joel performing Piano Man but the audio is pretty good.

I’m so glad I stopped being embarrassed and just recorded things. I regret not recording Diesel though. Oh well.

Our spot during the festival. It was pretty far. I think these photos were taken with zoom on. That’s why I had to look at the screens. My eyesight it too bad to see what’s actually going on onstage.

This was basically the line up except Lifehouse pulled out and Shannon Noll and Mark Seymour switched. Also the times were wrong to compensate for a loss of a band. We had to wait like 15-30 minutes between each set. I didn’t visit the Indie Stage though.

So its currently 12:30am and I just got home from the Stone Rock Music Festival. It was pretty good. Besides the fact the Lifehouse, one of the only bands that I was so looking forward to seeing cancelled it was still pretty good.

I went with my sister, my cousin and my cousin’s friend and we got free tickets because my sisters boyfriend worked there. Getting there and getting ready was basically me trying to find clothes, getting my sis to put makeup on me, packing bags, missing trains and then getting confused over which gate to enter. We ended up walking around nearly the entire stadium to get to gate E. Then there was confusion over whether we could get closer seats because the stage was quite far but then we realised any other place was probably worse so we went back.

I also experiences walking down an upwards escalator. It was not as fun as I thought it would be.

I’ll post up the line up later maybe tomorrow but first was illumination road, followed by Mark Seymour, Shannon Noll, Diesal, Guy Sebastian, Icehouse then finally Billy Joel.

Besides not knowing nearly all the songs it was good. The guitar playing was amazing especially by Diesal who sang and played guitar. I knew basically all the words to the songs Shannon Noll played and I really liked Guy Sebastian’s set even though I kept wondering why he was there because it wasn’t even rock. But it was still amazing. I also saw Angel from XFactor because she performed with Guy.

Most of the time I had to watch from the screens because I didn’t bring my glasses and we were so far that I could only see tiny moving men. The food was expensive but the hips were amazing. We bought chips, a hotdog and a hot chocolate but then we went back to get another hot chips. It was really expensive though. It probably cost like $16 or something.

Billy Joel was last and I was pretty tired because he started his set at like 9:30pm and halfway through my eyes kept drooping because the lights kept shiny in then making them half closed and I was quite sleepy. When he started playing songs I knew though I was more awake. He played Piano Man last and it was amazing. I recorded it luckily but I still need to see whether it turned out okay. Even though I didn’t know a lot of the songs his talent was amazing and he kept making jokes which was funny.

There was this guy who was so into the concert that he kept going up the aisle and whistling and taking photos. And then this girl went to the centre of the aisle a few times too to dance and it was cute whenever they were next to each other.

We met with my sis’ boyfriend after and he took us through the staff area to get through the crowds. We went down the workers elevator. Good experience.

Went home by train. Cousin bragged about my intelligence to her friend and said she was proud of me. When we talked later i told her i really wasn’t doing well and she encouraged me which was nice.

There’s probably more but I’m quite tired and can’t think straight. There was supposed to be UMAT prep tomorrow but that got cancelled so i don’t have to cram four papers in one night. I really need to start studying properly now. I’ll get some sleep soon and do everything tomorrow.

One of the only subjects that I thought I did well in and I didn’t even come in the top 10. I don’t know what I’m doing with my life right now. Everything I’m supposed to be good at doing I’m not. And everything I’m not good at, I’m still not. There is nothing for me to succeed in. I should accept failure but it’s making me sick.

Ugh. Tumblr hasn’t let me login using my computer since I got the battery fixed on Wednesday. So I have barely been updating anything. I think I’m basically gonna give up on the 365 because I haven’t written in a few weeks and because of not being able to login, I probably won’t until some time later.

On another note, I now have an iPhone albeit it being a hand me down. At least it works normally.

I have also been doing exams. And I am basically only confident that math 2 unit will be okay. I basically failed 3 unit and chemistry. Ugh. I really need to try harder. I should probably start studying for biology and CFS now so I have some decent marks.

In short, my life in the last few weeks has been pretty shit. And I hate myself for not studying and being a lazy arse like now. And for procrastinating.

So I should probably start studying now to prevent further self hate. Yeah I should.

I should’ve kept my mouth shut. I shouldn’t of have gotten lost in the atmosphere and told everyone about fucking everything. But I didn’t even do that. I told them a part of it. Maybe the worst parts and now it’s blown out of fucking proportion. 

I can’t deal with this right now. Maybe I thought talking about it helped. But it fucking didn’t. I didn’t expect them to care so fucking much about something that I only care about half the time. And now I don’t know how to get out of it. Fuck. I hate this. I should’ve kept my mouth shut.